spring transitions

she lays naked on the couch, grey sweater silhouetting curves barely. languid from bathing heat rising from skin, smooth air dried skin still slightly dry emerging from hidden winter hideout. these days are warm enough that winnipeggers steal every possible moment outside. on walks we see life in yards on porches, strolling the village still sporting tired winter fashions, matted hairs and not needed layers we can't quite put away. the students frantically study celebrating each exam knocked down anticipating summer drinking cabin visits time...

i know better, i know no extra time exists. it doesn't stop me yearning for the return to rails with long blocks in between, the escape and excitement of new experiences, the rhythm. Long summer eves with friends and wine, being self learning more, stimulation.  I can't wait to escape city bounds, bring my boy to the country to roam fields and trails, wander and see where it leads. His smile fills his entire face, every corner filled with grins and light.

my littlest sister leaves for adventure on friday and excitement for her fights with seeing her struggle to make this huge change. my mimi is forever three years old, pudgy hand reaching for mine, forming identity within a huge brood of five strong personalities. Mature beyond her years and serious (at times!), compartmentalizing parts of her life and allowing different parts to come out with every group. And now, she'll wander the world with her closest friend to discover herself. The nerves, the worries and before we know friday morning boarding flights to asia begins. The sisters and mom feted her at lunch and the first goodbyes ached my heart, knowing when she returns everything will be the same except one. She is due to return after leona's due date, although we do birth late babies. chances are no baby will arrive and she'll anxiously rush home hoping... Such changes, such transitions... i can't wait to see her come home to us, be changed and energized for wherever life leads next

these days....