solstice welcoming

Just another night sliding snowy roads half conscious movements. Gorgeous film Black Swan in a surprisingly filled grant park theatre late night monday show. Bathroom chats with lovely friend before our nights diverge. One drifts backwards along remembered roads headlights float ahead, a quiet house a soft light pulling you in. Cold screen to take you from reflection to projection, replacing introspection. A rare moment with self.

Oh solstice how i craved you

Beckoning over empty snowscapes early darkness sadness. The days will lengthen. The sun returns. Celebrate a corner turned during years of winter days fallen away in abysses lost. Dec 21st a relief, a smile in my december always. But when they say the first day of winter? That ticks me off. Really? We've been covered in snow for months, sitting in cold cars scraping ice from windshields pushing pulling digging cars out record snowfall immediate cold. REally? Welcome winter. How fucking depressing. I wish we could remove that winter label, seasons differing everywhere not complying to our listed weather plan. Come on, seasons! If you won't listen perhaps we should stop inaccurately labeling you. Oh wait, that applies to so much...

I pondered a Toronto trip too long and missed out. Standby tomorrow night instead, means having to pack my suitcase again although that was going to be needed soon anyway. Getting packed getting ready to the station four hour shift. Of nothing, or hardly anything. Choice of a cold night coming home sans car with a packed suitcase. Or a last minute pulled into work gone to Toronto. Not a lovely thought, but the trip would be good, home Christmas Day.

I will be missing the lunar eclipse tonight, despite it not having happened on the solstice for 372 years. 1638. What a woman I would have been in 1638. A heretic, a healer an outsider definitely. Depends on where I lived and how wealthy I was. Childbirth in the 1600s... wetnurses and slavery and aristocracy vs intellectual society, invention... A different age. I wonder whether a lunar eclipse would have been noticed by most. Definitely charted and expected by astrologers and philosophers, would it have had any significance or superstitions around it. Now a curious piece of trivia most won't observe. An interesting event though.

And those have been Sarah's musings at one am. Tune in next time to see how I am.